VroommVrooommmm

1st car drive yawh! hehhehheh...

was fun though it's a little bit boring. A dad always wants the best for the child. haha though it's totally illegal.

My other friends' driving lessons weren't as prescribed as mine i guess because we're still nonaged. I did ask to learn just from my mom but the answer was no all through the way =_=

So today, with the guidance of a driving teacher, I finally managed to drive a viva =) but only using the 1st and 2nd gear. How boring it was.

A part of my conversation with the driving teacher:

D.T  :  Bkpo papa suh lily blaja keto? ni mesti brehi derak.

me   :  eh, dop eh..jarey bena derak..tubek ng saem jarey2 jah sbb kalu hari skoloh, memey balek lewat pom..nk derak gno lagi..

D.T  :  Oh ingat ko brehi derak..baguh la g2 gak..skalo kalu hok blaja keto tp xsapa umur lg ni, brehi derak sapa parents xcekak nk ata..haha..

me   :  ehehehehe *hanya mampu tersengih*

xoxo

The best remedy ^^

SHOPPING

nothing than that and the presence of a mother makes it perfect =)

After almost 3 weeks of almost sleepless nights, I finally consumed the best best best remedy in the world.

An Exemption ;)

I knew that this moment would finally come. As usual, I'm getting bored already. And I'm missing everyone already. Anyway, let's cherish this instant because next year would be a very hectic one.

xoxo

Pleasee

I am urging time to move faster so that exam is over.

Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Besides the fact that this is the first time I watch a football game, I'm sad and pissed off. If I can watch something that I never did before with full support as a Kelantanese in front of the tv though I actually don't like football, why can't the Kelantan supporters who were IN THE STADIUM can't support the players when FULL UNDIVIDED SUPPORT was what those Kelantan players were craving for when they were fighting for their last chance. Okay it is still acceptable if many of us said they didn't play well, but still, that wasn't how those Kelantanese should behave. Burning banners, burning this, burning that. What exactly did they get from burning things is a question mark.

The moment that touches my heart was when Indraputra gave us a first and last goal in that match. Why couldn't the supporters of Kelantan stay there and support the team no matter what. Why didn't they shout out something together so that the team wouldn't feel bad and keep on being strong. Why can't they do that simple things? Their actions just made the players down. That's why I think the above quotation suites this situation perfectly. When the supporters made the decision to leave and burn things up, they meant LOSING and *taraa* we lost. It's the law of attraction that took place. Whatever it is, I salute the captain of the team. Though they went trough an unbearable pressure I guess, he managed to give us a gift. A goal. Thanks.

Everytime I think of this, I would remember what the teachers had done to us when we lost the debate competition. =( We were in the same situation. We lost the match, and also lost the support and appreciation from teachers and some maherians. How sad. Only we knew what was the feeling like.

To the Kelantan team, be strong. If there are Kelantanese who aren't proud of you guys, ignore those unthankful ppl. I am proud of you. Kito gomo next time. =) and to others, we need and we HAVE TO appreciate and be proud of them. They did a lot to get to where they are tonight. We know nothing about their hardwork.

xoxo

Love Story

I had three friends. Eric, Cathlyn, Carol. Eric was chased by all the girls in our high school. Cathlyn was one of those popular girls. A cheerleader, sexy, and stylish. Carol was just one of those plain and average girls .Cathlyn and Carol were both totally crazy and wacko over Eric. Cathlyn didn't have to do anything to attract Eric. For she was already attractive enough. Carol on the other hand, showered Eric which love and care. Carol wasn't ugly at all. In fact, she looked sweet and pleasant. But she wasn't a cheerleader, she didn't wear spaghetti-straps or tubes. So like everyone expected, Eric chose Cathlyn. For Carol was just one ordinary and plain girl. While Cathlyn was labeled as the cool and attractive type.

Eric always insulted Carol, telling her what a 'Plain Jane' she was and how dumb she looked which obviously made Carol feel so hurt and useless. That's life. Carol never gave up though. She wanted to prove something to Eric. She wanted to prove that looks aren't everything. She studied hard, really hard. She became the top girl, and all the guys who once ignored her, chased her. But she never forgot Eric. Everyday, she put a red rose in Eric's locker. Always with the same words. 'I care for you, and I always will' because she knew that Eric was facing a hard time.

Eric began to realise how dumb he had been. His beloved girlfriend, Cathlyn was flirting with other guys. He regretted for choosing the wrong girl. Cathlyn broke up with Eric later for she had found a wealthier guy. Eric felt so cheated, stupid and dumb. He went to look for Carol. He knelt on his knees, and said. "Carol, please forgive me. Do you want to be my girlfriend?" Carol rejected him, much to everyone's surprise. She only uttered these words. "You've suffered a great loss, so I don't want you to face another one".

Eric felt disappointed. He didn't understand a word that she said to him but they became good friends and did everything together. Eric began to change into someone better because Carol showered him with the love he never experienced before. His ex-girlfriends had never treated him that way. They just accepted him for his looks, but Carol accepted him for himself . She changed him. Carol continued putting a red rose into his locker everyday. With the same words. She never forgot.

One day, Carol didn't turn up in school. She didn't come for a week. At first, Eric thought that she was on a vacation with her family because she told him that she would be going Hawaii with them. But one day. He received a call from the General Hospital saying that Carol was about to die. She had been suffering from cancer but Carol forbade them from telling him because she didn't want Eric to worry about her but now that she was about to die. She wanted to see Eric for the last time. Eric rushed to the hospital. When he saw how weak Carol was, tears began rushing down his cheeks. He whispered, "Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why did you hide this from me?". She looked at him . And smiled weakly at him.

"When I said that I didn't want you to suffer from facing another loss, I meant this. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry. I wanted to spend my last days with you cheerfully." Eric looked at her.

"You can't leave me!" he said. "What will I be without you?"


"You'll be who you are now. I will always be there by your side. Never forget that. Cherish those times. Live life happily. And one more thing."

"Yes?" "I love you" And she died. Eric screamed. He still couldn't accept Carol's death. He had only spent a month with Carol. A month, but Carol changed his life in a way. A way that no one could ever explain. He regretted but he knew that Carol would always be keeping an eye on him from Heaven. Sometimes we just don't appreciate those people who really care for us until they leave us. Until we lose them. Then we regret. Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that counts. It's better to tell someone how much you love them rather than to not tell them and lose them without telling them. Love is when we fight till the very last minute, just to show and tell someone how much we love them.

xoxo

E to the X to the AM

Quick post this is. Hhaha Tomorrow I'm having History papers and I haven't read anything YET. Laud me please. Haha. I have less than six hours to revise 10 chapters and its crazy and I'm not going to finish them of course but I don't care. Haha Live a life happy yawh. Though I'm so stucked in this awful situation, but I know it will finally end even if I can't answer all the papers for this exam. I keep on telling myself, CHILL ELLI. YOU WILL BE JUST FINE. Ciao ppl! I'll probably be back when the exam's over.

xoxo

Bestir yourself!!--in my way ^^

Exam is so so so near and I am totally entirely extremely not prepared indeed I didn't do anything AT ALL. I just can't believe myself this time. I mean, its not something that I can take for granted. Its the final exam for crying out loud! SPM is roaring and chasing me. Oh. You wouldn't believe your eyes if you see in what kind of situation I'm in currently. Frankly, I wake up late, watch movies, activating myself on the net almost all the time, having fun, avoiding books and discussions for sure..blablabla and for shouting out loud is this how I should act when I'm facing a big examination in three or four days time? But something is being extraordinarily weird. This whole thing I'm in, I mean the mess, I'm loving it! Can't tell why but I'm totally happy with how I am. I don't force myself, no more..though I know I'm going to pay for this, but I start not to care and of course everyone says its not a good thing to be done and I'm lazy and I'm going to regret this. Errrr, though sometimes I do feel like maybee I'm going to be in a worse state by doing this and I might totally regret every single thing I'm doing but for the zillion time of but, I want to be like this. Free without pressure, enjoying life for the fact that its not going to be this blissful next year, and I just want to place myself where I belong to. If I can't be in Sina next year, I will  passionately coax myself to fix in with the situation though I will be definitely seperated from my girlfriends but its for my own betterment because it seems like I need something slower. I just can't receive things fast like rockets shooting into my life. 

Girlfriends, if you read this, I'm so sorry, I truely totally am. I love you guys so so much but I hope you can understand my situation. I don't want to be the best if its beyond my best. Though if I want to, I can't. But no doubt, all of you will remain as my besties. xoxo.

This is just a piece of my mind and probably many ppl will go against this. I want to live it how I want it to be, not how it supposed to be. Old folks say, susah dulu senang kemudian. No doubt its true, but I'd like to make some changes. Perhaps making it a total blissful route and just follow where it leads me to without forcing the peaceful mind to follow the path which leads to the best destination because it doesn't promise happiness and contentment. Maybe I'll just go with the flow without regrets. InsyaAllah.

Pemimpin Pelajar's Annual Dinner 09

Alhamdulillah...it turned out into a success though we faced 1001 kinds of obstacles =) Can't help but smiling everytime I think of it..hihi..here are some pics peeps!

*Pauseplay managed to perform for the first time on stage that night though it was after the official period =) but it's okay. People were still there.

Around 1 a.m., Ridel was the destination. haha. Shisha was their goal. Nuyu and Elli: Roti Pita jerrrr..haha

LOVE YOU GUYS!!

)=

I can't believe almost every single thing that happens today. OMG. The finals just now was bad. Nothing else than bad. I mean, Mr. Vampire, can't you see?? Your anak2 haven't reached that level yet. Why are you trying so hard to make them as the finalists?? Come on Mr. Vampire. =_= If I were you, I would be inordinately ashamed to do that kind of prevarication. Whatever. See you guys next year. We'll see, how good is your luck then.

And I just couldn't believe my ears. I know I wronged that person, but I..errm..I don't know how to put it in words. Okay then, it's my fault. Nothing can be done. Things had happened. Got to face the music. I want to change things. InsyaAllah. I'm not sure if I can but I've made up my mind I'll be better. I can't go on being like this and having to accept all the blames. I wouldn't want to be called a devil while that person is called an angel.

what a day =_=

Debate debate debate god knows how much I love debate,but when it comes to occurrence like what happened this morning, I feel like choking their neck, literally okay! It's not that we can't face the fact that there are ups and downs in this lovely debate world but I just can't accept it when it is unfairly done. We once faced the fact that we lost to wataniah, but today, no. In case that 'special' person reads this, I just want to say that we know it was you. Why did you play dirty? People still can see with their bare eyes that your 'anak2' don't deserve it. TOLONG LA. I'm not angry at our opponent just now, because they are just the puppet of yours too, to assist you to play dirty. =_=. suka hati awakla. TUHAN tahu apa awak buat. Dirty tricks won't bring you anywhere because at last, you'll have to face the fact that your 'anak2' can't take that kind of shortcut. We fought tooth and nail to get to where we are today, and your 'anak2' will have to do the same, or even more. Okay?

Back to my world okayh ppl. In the recent post, I mentioned the lumps on my skin. Later on I realised it was hong mok, well that's the chinese name of it that my mom uses, and its scientific name is urticaria. Goddamn itchy. After being jabbed, I got 2 days of MC but I wasted it of course for the debate but the vampire screwed everything up =_='.

Vampire dan 'anak2': Kita jumpa tahun hadapan ya. PDS ada, ASAT ada, mcm2 ada. We're not stupid no more. Save your tricks to other dumb debaters. We've learnt our lesson, and you are no more trusted okay.

HOW DO U APPEAR??

The above question goes to the scratches and lumps on my skin. I don't know where did I acquire them from. grrr. Got to thank the mossies for some of the lumps though.. =_= Oh mossies, is my blood that yummy? hahah.

I love this 4 days of holidays. Though there's no time for me to stuck my nose under those dusty books, it's still enjoyable I suppose.

Let's start with the debate discussion we had at my house on Friday. Stayed up with Mirah till 4 a.m. discussing while laughing, joking fantasizing, and menggila-ing besides the fact that nuyu tuyup delved herself into the dream world as early as always. Haha.

Then the next day, what a day I must say! Haha. Had a date with my dearest gf, Na and my bibik a.k.a. the butler, Cherah. haha. I fetched Na and went to Cherah's and had to burn the skin for 15 minutes under the sun because the bibik  did not wake up yet! oh. After learning mitosis, off we went to Pizza Hut PC. That was when they know how addicted I am to the cheezy chicken sensasi delight. hahaha.

Today, debate discussion II was threw. Wasn't really a success I reckon. Mirah arrived late and we just talked over for 1 hour and a half. But still, I am greatly tired. How wouldn't I be. I was at the mall from 12-5. It was 5 hours. I entered Noodle Station 3 times and I'm pretty sure the waitron thought we were brainsick. Haha. Since I read Nuyu and Bulan wrote the names of ppl they met, so I'll write too. Haha. style gitu.

ANIS, NUYU, MIRAH, SYUHATA, CHAH, PESA LONG, KAK KUYA, KAK AIN, METY, IWA, PESA, NICK, BOB, YAN, AWANIS, AISYAH, RUS, AZIM, BULAN, FEESHA, DIJAH, SHUSHU, FILA, SHAHIEZ, TEACHER ANNA, CKGU HASNAH, NADIERA, that's all that I can remember so far.

CONCLUSION: ramai gle kt kbmol today.

busy?

Confused whether I'm busy or not. I wish I'm not,but it seems like the current situation makes me busy though I don't really act like I am...hehehe..Abundance of things approaching around the corner. PP's annual dinner, debate, EXAM, omg. I might lose my saneness. How I wish I could stop myself from pressuring myself to be in 5 sina next year. I mean, of course there were zahrawians who succeed, weren't there? I think what's my biggest fear is that I'm afraid I might be separated from my girlfriends. Of course they are going to place themselves in sina and I'm pretty sure of that. So, there's nothing much to be said. I'm so so so left out. O GOD help me.

RAIN

IT'S RAINING OUTSIDE I'M DYING INSIDE. haha that's so true. My teeth hurt so much. Beyond what I could explain. And me, in this situation, trying to finish some homework that I know could not be finished by tonight. But dealing with this unbearable pain comes first. I don't know how will I survive till this pain is gone. GRRrr..

Let's hope. hehe.

Something to be pondered on

'Do unto others, what you want to be done upon you..'

When I read this, it somehow touches my heart how I always hurt ppl around me. Not to forget the fact that I'm just a teenage girl filled with excitement and fun for 24/7.

I mean, sometimes, I really don't want to hurt others but when it comes to a situation where ppl start to get on my nerves without mercy, that's when I start to ignore phrases of advices like the one above. I'm not a kind of person who is surrounded by hatred to ppl who are nice to me. Of course I'll be nice to them. Extra nice I should say. And vice versa. Of course I could be extraordinarily annoying to ppl who annoys me. Well I guess the concept of the above phrase takes place unto the person who annoys me at the first place. kan?

However, if after all this while, I was the one who started some dramas, I'm sorry. I really am. The problem with me is I sometimes know that I'm wrong and I should just give up, but you should know that far and away, I am very very very hard headed. But still, deep inside me, I still have the feelings of guilty that I want to apologize and clear things up but I just can't. Like women normally point up the egos of the males, the males too should've realised that females sometimes are even more egocentric. And I am probably one of them. Not to say that I am full of ego, but sometimes yes. It is hard for me to admit my fault and I will end up with such a messy outcome. But sometimes I thank my ego. It helps me to argue more and more. Helps me in debating too lah kot. hahaha. opss..actually i was supposed to write more about the phrase above but it seems like I've turned into another lane. hehe.

But that is life I guess. You can choose either to make it as a bed of roses, or a bed of thorns.

wahh..what a self-reflective post this is. hik3. last word: i sakit gigi..

hayyakk...

I'm soo sleepy...it's 6.23p.m. now..but I just slept for 2 hours last night..because I stayed up to finish those umpteen history notes..my fault..I rested for 10 days doing nothing for the holidays and of course I paid the price..as usual lah kan. haha.

I got a new watch. perlu ke bgtau kt cni? xpelah..I'm not in my best state of mind. Giddy nih. hihi. I purposely bought it because I want to spend dad's money as no one seemed to remember my birthday. hehe. Sorry but thanks dad.

School starts today and thank god the teachers took it easy. The lessons weren't that heavy this morning. Everything was quite relaxing. =) Lazy students like me will definitely love it. agagagagag. And no matter how lazy I am, I still have to start studying. Exam's starting in a month time. If you don't struggle elly, say goodbye to Sina.

I got class after this and I really really really need to take a catnap. zzzzzzzzzzz

uncomfortableness

Do u know the feelings when:

a) u r realllly sleepy but u can't sleep

b) u keep on thinking about things that u can't redo

c) u feel strong but actually weak

d) u r having a great stomachache

e) u want to watch a nice series of drama but r not able to do so bcuz every time u watch it u'll get

an utter heartache

f) u hve to help someone to recover from a disease that u urself r having n not sure whether u

hve recovered or not.

DUH....

MALAM RAYAAA

time passed so fast, dh nk raye. and as usual, my raya is always boring. the same routine goes on every single year.....wake up late in the morning..salam with my parents, get the envelope containing money, get on the car, after 5 minutes, taraaaa i'm in front of my grandma's house...after 2 hours, head back home, and i'll have nothing 2 do. On the 2nd day, ppl will come 2 my house but..yea..thats just it..nothing interesting bout my raya..and i always envy ppl with big family.. =(
and today i've been receiving many sms wishes but i could reply none of them..hehe..out of credit..anw, thanx ppl =)

btw, i'd like to wish everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN (^_^)..hve a nice raya everyone..

THIS IS A SHAMEFUL LIL BRAT WHO WOULD NEVER STOP GETTING ON MY NERVES.

NONE

mood: messy & moody

ANOTHER TWO BDAY GIRLS!!

Its now 1.15 a.m. and its the 6th day of SEPTEMBER. Its a special day for two special girls in my life ;)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY UNIE and NUYU!!!

UNI

I LOVE YOU dear n u will always be my girlfriend and bff!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY sweet 16!! n i am so sorry i can't join hana n na to surprise u with the tepung tomorrow morning bcuz I won't be going to school tomorrow... :( i'm badly sick...just enjoy the surprise tomorrow yeah! n thank you for making me feel much more better after crying n sharing my problems with you just now..though you laughed almost 3/4 of the conversation just now..n of course i find it not funny at all. sobs..sorry i cant wish you happy birthday through sms cuz i'm out of credit n stranded in this room n i cant get out with this swollen eyes n i dont think its a good idea to call you after all its late n we actually have the plan not to cal you in order to make 2morrow's plan successful...best wishes to you n may all ur dreams come true syg!!

NUYU

hOhO...HAPPY BIRTHDAY NUYOOT!! i'm soo sorry too that I can't wish you now through sms bcuz as I said, I'm totally out of credit n i cant get out of this room..the only thing that i can use is this laptop..long time no use..hee..my broken laptop..n sorry i can't join te meeting tomorrow cuz i'm sick dear..n to u 2..may all ur dreams be answered by GOD..n lets win more competitions next year yeah!! hahaha..!! muach!

XOXO to both of you!!

BEST WISHES

To my dearest lovely friend Nur Amirah Zainudin, HAPPY BIRTHDAY dear...now ur sweet 16 (^_^) I wish you all the best and may everything that you wish for will come true!! including your afiq smapkajang..hek3.. and I'm sorry for always being such a nuisance! hahaha..and I will never stop annoying you! haha..Lub U abe cob!!

Bear it, elly!

OMG i take back my words in the previous post saying that my teeth wasnt that painful with the braces on. Its all-fired and bloody painful esp tonight!!! gghhrr..so posting something like this might probably ease my pain? haha as if it does. i found this picture. so cute but its not mine but maybe yes in the future. i'll try 2 hve something colourful like this. heh heh heh. THE PAIN IS KILLING ME.

CHEERIO CHEERIO !

BEING IMPATIENT

FYI, i'm currently being impatient. very2.... oh 7.18, pls hurry up.....chop-chop!!
After weeks of fasting month passes by, I finally helped myself to the bazaar at stadium just now..n it was uncomfortably crowded..howeverrr...of course i managed to get myself some food (=
1. ikan pari bakar [btol la kan? ikan pari? or whats the name of that ikan? ntah]
2. Ikan talapia bakar [i'm not sure about the name too..hehe]
3. udang celop tepung
4. something that looks like puding but i'm not sure whether it is
5. pulut mango

SOrry i name those food in my way..hehe
though i don't really know why do i buy ikan bakar that much today..i mean there r still other kinds of ikan besides the bakar ones bcuz yelah, i can't take meat or chicken yet =(

okayh ppl, 12 minutes more to go! SLAMAT BERBUKA evrybody! adios (^_~)

52nd

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY ppl! ngee.. =) but the celebration is a lil bit lame tis year..wonder y..is it bcuz of the H1N1 or bcuz patriotisme is declining? hm..i dont know..

I'm waiting for maghrib n can hv nothing done by now..I mean my homework..except for history..bcuz i'm giving my history teacher no more reasons to hate me..well not hate literally but sort of la..cuz i often ditch his class b4 this..but is it considered as ditching? hehe.. i think leaving class 4 debate practice isn't ditching...kan3? hehe..

I'm actually starting to have a headache for not sleeping enough or sleeping not at the right time i should say? so let's do some calculation on how many hours more do i have to finish my homework..hehe..after breaking my fast n after i'm done with my prayers, it'll be around 8.15..err..so there'll be 3hours 45minutes...after deducting some for isya' prayers, going to the toilet, wandering around once in a while..i guess only 3hours are left..so 3 hours a.k.a. 180 minutes left to get 41 questions of modern maths and 50+ questions of chemistry done. i'll go completely insane. =( serves me right..

oh yeah..today will be the last day of august...so au revoir August! Welcome back September. haha.

MERDEKA! PROUD TO BE A MALAYSIAN =)

i hate it but i do it

Lauds and exalts I convey to my dearest self for procrastinating once AGAIN to finish my homework for this 9-days holidays. When will I stop being the GREATEST and STERLING and most HONOURABLE procrastinator..? let us all wonder..good luck 2 me to get all this ready in TWO days. huhhh =(

BrACES

I thought it was verry painful bcuz evvryone said so. but xdela sgt...it was yesterday, the 26th at usm by dr. rozita. haha. pink in colour. just wore the upper one..the lower one, after raya insyaAllah..

But i admit la..sometimes it hurts but not that much..but what i'm quite upset about is i can't eat as usual..no chicken, no meat, no sweet things, no everything except for porridge. greattt! as if.

I'm really enjoying my school holidays and none of the homework has been done. bravo! 2 more days left b4 school re-opens. good luck to me to finish them. haha. ADIOS.

some updates..

Lol...lmenye x update..got to make this in points form lah. br senang.. =)

• next week pds kbangsaan. scary. exciting? campur2 lah. hehe
• ok this is a bit obsolete but it is important. our debate team made it into the double octo for the 8th dbating championship iium. ngeee :)
• still about dbate, we lost to wataniah for the state level of asat.... FRUSTRATING.
• I am obsolete in studies. xpe. catch up lps nationals. but we (debaters) are having problems and complications with moral supports from everyone in Maher. =(
• I've finished reading the TWILIGHT SAGA (^_^)...kudos to stephenie meyer.
• show off time, i have a new sound woofer. HAHA. thanx dad.
• I'm on a forever-mission. SLIMMING DOWN. and it fails forever.
• I started to watch korean dramas last week. i blame mirah for making me love it. MY GIRL is too great though kak yaya pitied me for watching something that she had watched 2 years ago..
• I'm hungry. I got to go. This is why I have the mission to slim down forever.

introducing my new love ;p

ehehe...at last..i own what i've been desiring for quite a time ;) ngeeee...

it's actually nice to update this blog after a period of time i've been busy watching hindi films..haha.

April is another busy month i suppose. Debate competitions are approaching + pp's benchmark bla3. and i hate this moment when everyone's leaving for mrsm and sbp for the 2nd intake. I feel so left alone to have most of my friends gone. ;( xpelah..got to endure it..btw, as a farewell remark, goodbye my dear friends..anis, aswad..nad, and tepek. I'll definitely miss all of u...sobs..

EXAM WEEK

CURRENT MOOD:

S to the T to the UDY

dotdotdot

Reminiscing the day when it was August 16th last year. A day full of joy, suprises, and dissapointment. The same kind of thing happens today. 12th of feb 09. Getting to know something that I didn't even expected it would be that worse. So heartbreaking. It gives a BIG, HUGE and GIGANTIC impact on me, emotionally.

_______________________________________

ALTERED WEEK

This week is hard for me undoubtedly though I just acted like I'm fine but the fact is that I'm not. It's so unbelievable that this kind of thing could happen to us as bestfriends. One small matter destroyed the whole 3 years. It's so unfair and extremely unjust for me and for us. I'm SAD. What a grief. If she's not sad, there's nothing I can do but I don't lie. I'm totally sad. What kind of person will I turn into if I don't feel any ruthfulness after everything we've been through. A week that should have become the most precious and valued moment, changed into a distressing one. Everything's spoilt now.

:(

M&M--S&S

MESSY & MUSSY. That's me at the moment, officially. It has always been me. The GREAT PROCRASTINATOR. I have 9 days off to do my umpteen homework but I did nothing for the first 5 days. GOOD. Then I panicked on the 6th day and wanted to start working. The main problem is, the homework is meant to be finished in 9 days! NOT 4 DAYS! I deserve it. padan muka. So I'm doing things in a total messy way and I'm S&S. strained and stressed! I have to stay up so late to do the works and of course I wake up so late. Meaning to say, every single thing goes wrong. So I'm taking a break. Picturing the mess and start to blog. Blarrrbbbbbbbbb. I WANT A BREAKKK. seriously.

*me-3 a.m.

* the current mess

hehe

Ohea. Wish came true ;) Today's much much more better than yesterday and today's the REALL CHINESE NEW YEAR. ekekeke...After celebrating at Yi Yeng's, off we went to meet Aunt Abu, proceeded back home, I had a catnap, awakened by my maternal family members' presence, out to kbmall wit my chindian cuzzies, and back home at last. What a day. ngeeeeeeee.

*delights

Hairpee Chinese Neu Year

1st day of Chinese New Year isn't that merry bcuz village is a no-go-back for this year. ;( can't imagine that I spent the whole day attending myself to physics tuition class and waiting to see the eclipse that's so dissapointing. I was overjoyed to witness the eclipse but hampeh. I couldn't really see it. What I saw was just the cloud covering the sun. So I ended up picturing myself with my cats and kitten. LOL.. lame raya. HOPING FOR A BETTER TOMORROW.
ADIOS~

BUSY

Ow yeah. It's a busy night but still, I'm eager to update. hehe. I've tons of homework and tomorrow i got to go to school. haiyya. Actually.....I snapped a wonderful shot this forenoon. Perhaps not that wonderful according to others but the most wonderful picture I've ever snapped. I mean it. It's like,,,wow. hahah. I'm exaggerating. It's a view from the toilet balcony of karisma which I've just discovered after years studying there. hahas. I think this shop lot was burnt la. But seems nice to be pictured. Actually me myself, I don't understand what's the real big deal about picturing this kind of picture. Nvm la. What I can say is its damn unique.

I call it wonderful for its uniqueness.

And another 'wow' for today is I get a new biology teacher at karisma and she's way berkarisma. hek3. I'm delighted not to learn with that lame and feeble teacher anymore. ;p

LOL

It's totally a tough and hard week for me. Everything encounters at the same time and I'm not handling this unpleasant situation well. And today is the worst. My mum's still not well, my bro is having a fever and his bad mood makes this house so lame and everything goes badly. Maja. I think bcuz tday is the 13th. maybe..ok. I'm being irrational. But spending time at the hospital everyday after school and be back home late at night to finish my so-banyak-homework is so tiring. ok, I'm exaggerating. My homework is not that banyak. but seriously i'm tensed.

its a rainy rainy day

*ulala*

my first +maths class was cool but perplexing enough =.=

i'll update soon ppl.

got to go to bed early, school's starting 2morrow ;p

First times....

Eyyo ppl..today is quite a day I shud say. I have my first lesson for physics today. I learn biology for the first time today..and also study modern maths for the first time..hahah.

I was soo happy when I entered the class just now for the biology subject but once the teacher projected her lame voice, I was soo disappointed and frustated to have my first biology lesson with such a feeble teacher, sorry to say. hmm.. I hope the tuition centre will find a better teacher that doesn't treat the girl students as if we don't exist. What I noticed is she just focused on the boys. Haiyyaa...eik3..xbaik mengumpat cikgu..

However I still enjoy the lessons as we just started with the simple introductions today..hahah.

And this is the first cheque issued by the name of mine. XD

Au revoir!

AUF WIEDERSEHEN 2008

Buhbye 2008 and HAPPY NEW YEAR ppl..! ngeee =) 2008's one of my favourite years! many good things happened and of course bad things too..but it's ok. i got my 8a's already..that's good enough..alhamdulillah...hehe..

Talking about the moment I received my results, it's indescribable. haha. When all of us were waiting for the results on the 30th at Dewka, whoaa. One word, jitteriness. That's what we had with us. I was nervous to the max and only God knows. But right after I got my results, everything turned to be wonderful and amazing! After a while, I cried..not because of my good results, but because I had to see my bestfriend crying for her unsated results! sincerely, I was soo sad to see her like that..but thank god she's now better..

Seems like I'm going to end my relaxing life by tomorrow..cuz tuition is starting. and school as well. Can't wait! but at the same time I'm qiute lazy to have a life like that..hihihi..No matter what, I've to go on lah kan...and I really hope 2009 will be a nice and memorable year. as usual. hahah.

Finally, I can post a song on my blog. hahah. Thanx to my e'ong bro. He never let me publish his pic but today I will. hahaha. No worries bro, your face's still covered la..haha.

* a BIG brother of mine. XD

ADIOS AMIGOS!

utter wretched

OMG I'm being soooo pathetic! I feel so bad. seriously. i really feel like crying and i'm not bluffing, i'm not lying!

I just had a big fight with my bro..result's coming out soooo soon....i can't open the pet society game and I don't know what's wrong..uhh.. ;( really lamentable. I'm bored to the fullest and I'm starting to recall the memories of me and my long lost friend..I've just listened to some songs that he sent to me last time..i miss him but I don't know how to get in touch with him..i still remember how he made me feel better everytime I felt bad..I have to accept the fact that some friends just come and go..I can't expect more.......

ouhh..this lame situation will make me feel bad by bringing me back to those nice memories with my friends..only GOD knows how much I miss them..i won't stop enunciating how I miss them until school re-opens ):

I wonder how is my PMR result going to be..I just got to wait for another day to dissapear in a verrry boring way. Then I will get to know..Since I don't have anyone to talk to at the moment, this blog is totally the best place for me to express my ill luck! Actually I'm gaining too much weight recently and I blew out of the water when I got to know how heavy I am when I last measured my weight..haiihhhhh..automatically, I lost my mood to wear nice clothes because I know I won't look any better than a short fat girl. Frankly speaking, that's what I always think when I'm dressing up to go out. -_- I really need to work out..except if I get bad results for my exam, then I will start to lose weight naturally! Anyway, i'll surely make an announcement if I lose weight..

ADIOS ppl..

Lala~

What a frigid night. lAla..I had a nite at anis's last night..quite a night cuz we stayed up until 4 in d morning thinking bout nothing else except for the results. omg..it's so near and i'm worrying about it around the clock and it makes me feel so not comfortable. uh..3 more days to come and it seems to be like 3 months!

What I've been doing lately is just watching watching and watching nothing but camp rock. Hahah. I got that song stucked in my head for watching that movie over and over again. ''I'm too cool for uu....''. hahaha. Anis said it sounds gedik but i say it sounds cool..hahah. But it seems like my morning today differs from other boring mornings that I had. Not to say morning actually bcause we arose nearly noon. hahah. Woke up and continue talking about the results. duhh...had our lunch then followed anis and her dad to the market..lol..then went back to her house again and had a chat for hours before my mom fetched me home.

*Anis's new short nails after she cut her over-the-top long nails. hahah

Whatever it was, I felt good to breathe in such a new air that differs from the air that I've always have in my house! hahah. At least I could talk to someone that's one of my bestfriend..yeah..rejoicing moments though it's just for one night..Nobody understands my dilemma here..being in a house, for 24 hours, doing the same thing over n over again everyday for months. If I'm out, it's no where else except for kbmall and tesco. It's way boring! But this is actually the life that I've been dreaming of before I sit for PMR. haiyyaaa...

Hm..this boring moments will end up in just 3 days more! There's ony two choices, I'll end up this moments with joy, or tears. ohhhhhh..again i'm into this results issue..

ARRIVEDERCI~

TuttUruttu

Merry Christmas ppl! haha..i wanted to update earlier but i was drained of energy last night..hehe..

24th December 08, We had a whale of a time on our graduation day at London College of Management. waah. it sounds great but it's just a pre-intermediate lever course laaa..hek3. So the Thai and Maldives diploma students arranged a party for us. I really thank them>kak leelaa, kak reeya, kak toh, and mr. ahmad. ngee..they did a gud job! yeahhh!! haha.

*Mr. Ray and the great diploma students. heheh

The party was held on the 2nd floor at LCM though it's quite messy up there bcoz Mr. Ray is leaving up there. heheh. shhh! but the thai students made it look cooool..hahah. We started with the party and some games at first.

*fadzlina, julia, mr.keykey filling up the bottles with water using spoons. lol

*Mr. Ivan's eating as fast as possible. hahah. go Mr. Ivan! * Me, playing a game which we step on each other's balloons. i don't know its name. haha.

*our wall of fame. hahas

*Nasiha, the winner of musical chair with her prize! XD

*mine, ju's, fadz's

Then we went down to the office to wash our hands actually but it turns into a photography session. LOL.

*Fadzlina, Miss Farah yang cun melecun, me, yaya n juuu

*up we go again to continue the party with the masks! hahaha

*me n fadz

*receiving the cert

*doing the cleaning ;p

yawh..it finished earlier but I went home late..so...i had to do the cleanups! haih..that's why i was damn tired. then i went back home, AGAIN, i had to vacuum the whole house. aduhss..

Mercury

As a universe lover, i want my blog to be filled with some info about space (:

so, we'll start with MERCURY, which is the nearest planet to the sun in our solar system yawh!

*the planet Mercury


Apparently, it looks very like our moon. It's size is about our moon's size too and it's covered with craters because the space rock have crash-landed on it. THE BIGGEST CRATER is the CALORIS BASIN, 1300KM across.


Well, Mercury is quite small. It's about third the size of the Earth. IT WOULD TAKE 21 PLUTOS TO BALANCE ONE MERCURY. so, Pluto is smaller than Mercury and obviously, the smallest. hehe.


Ok now we'll move on to it's weather. Actually, there's no weather there because Mercury has no air and hardly any atmosphere, so there are no cloud to protect the planet's surface from the Sun during the hot baking day or to keep in the heat at night. There's no wind or rain on Mercury, either. The surface is 350°C during the day and -170°C at night! Many people have misunderstood that Mercury is the hottest planet since it is the closest to the sun. Although it is, but its neighbour Venus is even hotter! because it has clouds to keep in the heat.


So lets move on ppl. This is an amazing fact about Mercury. Mercury is the FASTEST PLANET. It zooms around the Sun in just 88 days, at an incredible 173,000kph! That makes it faster than any space rocket ever invented.


Haa..so that's Mercury!

COUNTING DAYS =.=

Actually i have this blog since last year but i did nothing with it. but now i decided i shud write sumthing. or else it'll be otiose..ya..i guess i shud be more creative bcuz the only reason i didn't want to write anything on this blog is ''i don't know what to write..''..

oH waiting for the PMR results! it makes me feel soooo sick. I'm starting to dream bout it =.=

The day's almost here..probably on the 27th..or maybe 30th? 30th i guess. i don't know..what am i gonna do if i can't get to study in sc stream next year? i've been aiming to learn biology for years.. uh.. -_-

And i'm beeing deplorable lately..i played badly in music class this evning..uh..miss those faces which hve lightened up my days for years..this is why i hate school holidays..anis..uni..nad..ju..hehe..but i see ju everyday la..heheh..

* how i miss these lovely classmates! ow anis, u're missing.

*a pictha that i start to appreciate when i miss my friend..

late enough to sleep. i'll try to update soon.