elli liliana aishah

P-A-U-S-E-P-L-A-Y

2009-12-16T17:01:00.005+08:00

Realizing the fact that I've never officially introduced Pauseplay here, so here it goes...hehe

We consist of five people:

Elli (me) as the vocalist

Nu'aim as the lead guitarist

Ladi as the second guitarist

Knick as the bassist

Bob as the drummer

Let's start with how this band got started, yeahhhhhhh haha

At the beginning, our bassist Knick started out evething, thanks to him. Haha. I didn't even know Nu'aim, Ladi and Bob before but Knick brought us together. One night when I was in a tuition class, he out of the blue asked me whether I was interested in becoming the vocalist for this band called Pauseplay but anyway I hesitated because I'm not that good at singing for I was concentrating on drumming but somehow I agreed after some considerations.

Basically, it is an indie pop band. We've came out with our single, Sampai Bila which was written by Knick.

You can listen to it on our myspace, http://www.myspace.com/pauseplay69 hehe

New songs are about to come but we have to wait for Knick the orang kl to come back first to start things up. Haha.

Frankly I love this band but sometimes I feel like I'm ruining it for my voice isn't that good but sometimes I tell myself gasak jerrr..kan3? hehe All we can do is to provide some pieces of music to be enjoyed to colourize life and we're still meliorating ourselves and our music as well because Pauseplay is a new band compared to some other well-known ones. Supports are much needed people. THANK YOU you oollss!! haha

xoxo

Xde ubat ke?

2009-12-18T00:15:00.001+08:00

Ni la elli, pukul 11.50 baru la start nak menulis la...baru nak makan la...dah la tu, start je pegang pen, ade la rase nak buat tu, nak buat ni, nak update blog la, ape la. =_='

Okeh2. Main point. Aku cuak. Aku cuak gile sbb esk ade tuition. ? Get my point? Tu la masalah aku dari kecik sampaaai la skarang. Asal sebut tuition je, memang aku cuak. Tapi since aku dah besar dah skrg, aku pandai la siket cover. Tapi still, cuak tak mampu nak cakap. Aku pun xtau la whats wrong dgn tuition. Dulu time kecik2 mase tuition kat Smart Readers tu, kalau mama nk hantar, mesti ade dalam sbulan tu aku nangis2 sbb xnak gi sampai terduduk duduk ats tangge tu. Tah pape. Haha. Pegi tadika xde plak masalah. Ok jekk..
So skrg ni, aku ulang lagi, aku cuak nk pgi tuition sir esok. Padahal tepi umah aku jek. Npe perlu cuak aku pun xtau. Norma elli liliana la tuh.

Problem baru, ape yg aku nk study, xde org nk ajar. Ape yg aku xnak blaja, rmai la plak ckgu yg nk aja. Masalah la...aku nak amik english literature spm ni. Memang la cikgu skolah ade yang nak ajar, tp kalau boleh aku nak la amik klas kat luar, tapi malangnya, xde pon org yang nak ajar. Ade cikgu tuition aku tu ckp nk aja, cancel la plak. BZ is the reason. Aku nak blaja guitar, ehehe tp xde jgk org nk aja. Ade tu ade tp aku xnak la klas rmai2. Xsuke. Aku nak sorang2 and hari2. Hehe. Malangnye jgk, xde org nk aja. Naseb badan. Ade yg ckp blaja sndiri je. Memangla. Tapi aku nak la start ngan cikgu dlu, then lpas sbulan ker..aku carry on la sndiri..

Ape ape pun, aku CUAK esk ade klas. haha.

xoxo

50 untrue things men tell women

2009-12-14T19:18:00.004+08:00

Believe me this time, I promise you that I'll change

No, I'm not seeing anyone else

I haven't thought about her (old girlfriend) in years

How many times do I have to tell you I'm not having an affair?!?

Your career is as important as mine

You are always beautiful even if you have a dozen of children

I want us to remain close friends always

My wife and I have an understanding

You're wonderful; you deserve someone better than me

I will never ever lie to you

Let's be friends first

When you walked through that door, I knew it was the real thing

I'd like you even if you were a man

It's okay to be good looking, but looks just don't mean that much to me

The difference between us will bring us even closer

I spend everything I earn on you and the kids

I love you even if you love 10 other guys

You make me feel like a kid again

I'm going out with the boys (to the gym, to the office)

I'll move wherever you want

Of course I'm not bored with you

As soon as I finish this project (get a promotion, a raise, make partner), we'll......

You've got more sex appeal in your little toe than my wife's got in her whole body

It wouldn't be you and me anymore if I used one of those

Let's pool our assets - whatever is mine is yours

I still find you just as attractive as the day I met you

Divorce is the farthest thing from my mind

Sure, I'll watch the kids

It's not just the sex I want, it's being close to you.

We'll be spending a lot of time together when I retire

You're the only reason I've worked so hard

If I didn't have all this work, you know I'd go with you and the kids to your mom's

No one's ever turned me on like you do

My boss says there's nothing to worry about

I'll never tell

Relax, she's just a friend

This is just a temporary separation until we get things worked out

Your hair (dress, outfit) looks fantastic

I don't care at all about how you look, your personality is the most important thing

Of course I'm listening to what you're saying

Come on in and we'll just cuddle for a few minutes

No, I don't think you're fat

You're the woman I should have married

I'm going to be focusing on my work for a while now.

I guarantee you, I'm not the father

Your having kids has nothing to do with my not wanting to get married

I'm not ashamed of the way you talk (look, act, etc.)

It's nothing personal; I just don't like sharing my living space with someone

This time I'm really serious

Honestly, honey, it's just for the guys - none of the wives go to the conference

Oh, you called? I didn't realize it was you

*it caught my eyes so i thought i should probably post it here but dont take it seriously because sometimes there are exceptions for some things ;)

xoxo

Yes No Yes No Yes

2009-12-13T01:14:00.000+08:00

I've finally realised that I've wasted half of the holidays that I have. So, no more wasting is a must. I must go out everyday no matter what though it's just a short walk. I must ~~STUDY~~ everyday from tomorrow onwards. I must watch all the movies that I feel like watching. I must eat everything I want to. I must jog everyday to keep my promise to look ~~LESS FAT~~ next year. HAHA. I must start to think about SPM. I must have foresight. I must be the restrainer of my own emotions. I must must must must. and, one more, hehe I must finish those Golden Holidays.. =_='

xoxo

Sweetest

2009-12-11T11:21:00.012+08:00

The most gratifying creation. Kids =) living happily in a beautiful lovely world.

I just can't help myself but uploading these images. May all those sweet moments will be always cherished.

The portrayal of beautiful life, http://www.teaandjam.com/blog/

But around the us, there are children who do not have a good life that they deserve and need to be reached out by us.

It's something for us to ponder on people.

*updated for I feel it's not fair to depict their joy and ignore the suffering.
xoxo

Discontentedness

2009-11-28T00:09:00.003+08:00

It has always been me to stay at home, locked in my room and watch movies for hours continuously and that makes me totally satisfied but but but right now, I would like to express some DISSATISFACTION for all the movies I've watched for this 2 or 3 days lately. Those movies which I spent my money on to buy those dvds and not to forget my patience for downloading them for days but the result is so frustrating =_=''. I mean, I won't blame anyone if they are just ordinary movies, but the majorrr problem is, they are the popular ones and I wouldn't want to mention the titles but they are totally the ones that people made a fuss about. I'm not blaming anyone, but I'm just saying that I'm foiled. I was so excited to watch them, but suddenly, they turned out to be a stack of absurdly unavailing movies.. (T.T) They are major brilliant at making trailers, but not those movies.

xoxo

Thousands of thoughts

2009-12-08T17:15:00.002+08:00

Getting okay.. heee..There's just so many things to be done since it's my last holidays before SPM but too bad that I'm stucked at home not to go out anywhere for my little brother has just had his circumcision. So I'm little by little getting insane. Not to tell that the heart is throbbing to get out and see the world. grr. At least, bring me to Popular to buy a novel to read! I have nothing at home.

Na! Please hurry back. And Uni! Come to KB pleaseee. Let's work out the plan but not the waterfall okay. haha.

I can't even plan the debate workshop that we have been discussing before since the debaters are scattered everywhere =_=;

And and and lately many bloggers have turned their blogs into private ones and I feel like doing so too but when I think twice, I think there's no need yet because it's not that I'm going to write something personal. Heheh.

Life is so boring and all I'm doing now is watching movies and pretending to be cool when the poignant parts come. Yes I'm pretending not to care about all those lovey-dovey things for now. =) And and and, I'm still pretending that all those things waste my time. Pathetic eh?

xoxo

Absolute misery

2009-12-08T00:32:00.003+08:00

Everything should be incredibly right and okay at the moment but I just feel uneasy. It's like something is going to happen and I have no idea what it is. I can't do anything because everything feels wrong. All sorts of nightmares and bad dreams keep bothering me. ohhh. I feel like crying but then the mind asks why. There's no reason. The worst thing is I couldn't figure out anyone that I can talk to at the moment about it.

If any of you know how to face this, kindly tell me, pls.

xoxo

First of December

2009-12-01T19:33:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Mama! Though it is always hard for me to wish you, you know that I do in my heart, don't you? I suppose you should have known that papa and you owns a very shy daughter that hardly shares what she does but actually she really hopes that you would be proud of her.

Today, it is different form any other first of Decembers that I've been through for this sixteen years. Today, it is my mother's birthday when some of the people I know, they are crying because they lost their mother on the very same day, which is today. I know how thankful I should be. Thank You God.

xoxo

Bestir yourself!!--in my way ^^

2009-10-31T00:44:00.005+08:00

Exam is so so so near and I am totally entirely extremely not prepared indeed I didn't do anything AT ALL. I just can't believe myself this time. I mean, its not something that I can take for granted. Its the final exam for crying out loud! SPM is roaring and chasing me. Oh. You wouldn't believe your eyes if you see in what kind of situation I'm in currently. Frankly, I wake up late, watch movies, activating myself on the net almost all the time, having fun, avoiding books and discussions for sure..blablabla and for shouting out loud is this how I should act when I'm facing a big examination in three or four days time? But something is being extraordinarily weird. This whole thing I'm in, I mean the mess, I'm loving it! Can't tell why but I'm totally happy with how I am. I don't force myself, no more..though I know I'm going to pay for this, but I start not to care and of course everyone says its not a good thing to be done and I'm lazy and I'm going to regret this. Errrr, though sometimes I do feel like maybee I'm going to be in a worse state by doing this and I might totally regret every single thing I'm doing but for the zillion time of but, I want to be like this. Free without pressure, enjoying life for the fact that its not going to be this blissful next year, and I just want to place myself where I belong to. If I can't be in Sina next year, I will passionately coax myself to fix in with the situation though I will be definitely seperated from my girlfriends but its for my own betterment because it seems like I need something slower. I just can't receive things fast like rockets shooting into my life.

Girlfriends, if you read this, I'm so sorry, I truely totally am. I love you guys so so much but I hope you can understand my situation. I don't want to be the best if its beyond my best. Though if I want to, I can't. But no doubt, all of you will remain as my besties. xoxo.

This is just a piece of my mind and probably many ppl will go against this. I want to live it how I want it to be, not how it's supposed to be. Old folks say, susah dulu senang kemudian. No doubt its true, but I'd like to make some changes. Perhaps making it a total blissful route and just follow where it leads me to without forcing the peaceful mind to follow the path which leads to the best destination because it doesn't promise happiness and contentment. Maybe I'll just go with the flow without regrets. InsyaAllah.

Wussy Raya?

2009-11-27T18:29:00.001+08:00

Salam Aidiladha to all =)

I hope everyone has a nice day because mine is feeble and lame.

I just don't know whether it's true that raya celebrations get more wussy over years or it just simply happens to mine due to lack of family members. haha

Anyway, lately I feel very otiose to write..so sorry. Can't find out why. Maybe it's because of my mood swings?

xoxo

MALAM RAYAAA

2009-09-19T21:11:00.005+08:00

time passed so fast, dh nk raye. and as usual, my raya is always boring. the same routine goes on every single year.....wake up late in the morning..salam with my parents, get the envelope containing money, get on the car, after 5 minutes, taraaaa i'm in front of my grandma's house...after 2 hours, head back home, and i'll have nothing 2 do. On the 2nd day, ppl will come 2 my house but..yea..thats just it..nothing interesting bout my raya..and i always envy ppl with big family.. =(
and today i've been receiving many sms wishes but i could reply none of them..hehe..out of credit..anw, thanx ppl =)

btw, i'd like to wish everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN (^_^)..hve a nice raya everyone..

uncomfortableness

2009-09-21T22:38:00.004+08:00

Do u know the feelings when:

a) u r realllly sleepy but u can't sleep

b) u keep on thinking about things that u can't redo

c) u feel strong but actually weak

d) u r having a great stomachache

e) u want to watch a nice series of drama but r not able to do so bcuz every time u watch it u'll get

an utter heartache

f) u hve to help someone to recover from a disease that u urself r having n not sure whether u

hve recovered or not.

DUH....

)=

2009-10-22T19:01:00.004+08:00

I can't believe almost every single thing that happens today. OMG. The finals just now was bad. Nothing else than bad. I mean, Mr. Vampire, can't you see?? Your anak2 haven't reached that level yet. Why are you trying so hard to make them as the finalists?? Come on Mr. Vampire. =_= If I were you, I would be inordinately ashamed to do that kind of prevarication. Whatever. See you guys next year. We'll see, how good is your luck then.

And I just couldn't believe my ears. I know I wronged that person, but I..errm..I don't know how to put it in words. Okay then, it's my fault. Nothing can be done. Things had happened. Got to face the music. I want to change things. InsyaAllah. I'm not sure if I can but I've made up my mind I'll be better. I can't go on being like this and having to accept all the blames. I wouldn't want to be called a ~~devil~~ while that person is called an ~~angel~~.

Pemimpin Pelajar's Annual Dinner 09

2009-10-25T15:22:00.003+08:00

Alhamdulillah...it turned out into a success though we faced 1001 kinds of obstacles =) Can't help but smiling everytime I think of it..hihi..here are some pics peeps!

*Pauseplay managed to perform for the first time on stage that night though it was after the official period =) but it's okay. People were still there.

Around 1 a.m., Ridel was the destination. haha. Shisha was their goal. Nuyu and Elli: Roti Pita jerrrr..haha

LOVE YOU GUYS!!

VroommVrooommmm

2009-11-23T18:32:00.008+08:00

1st car drive yawh! hehhehheh...

was fun though it's a little bit boring. A dad always wants the best for the child. haha though it's totally illegal.

My other friends' driving lessons weren't as prescribed as mine i guess because we're still nonaged. I did ask to learn just from my mom but the answer was no all through the way =_=

So today, with the guidance of a driving teacher, I finally managed to drive a viva =) but only using the 1st and 2nd gear. How boring it was.

A part of my conversation with the driving teacher:

D.T : Bkpo papa suh lily blaja keto? ni mesti brehi derak.

me : eh, dop eh..jarey bena derak..tubek ng saem jarey2 jah sbb kalu hari skoloh, memey balek lewat pom..nk derak gno lagi..

D.T : Oh ingat ko brehi derak..baguh la g2 gak..skalo kalu hok blaja keto tp xsapa umur lg ni, brehi derak sapa parents xcekak nk ata..haha..

me : ehehehehe *hanya mampu tersengih*

xoxo

Thank you Mc Donalds ;)

2009-11-26T17:56:00.002+08:00

The most scrumptious and pleasant-tasting food for now is back and I feel like having it everyday but I'm often nettled when it is served with not enough sauce. Agagagagag. This thinggg disrupts my diet =D hehe

xoxo

The best remedy ^^

2009-11-21T17:55:00.004+08:00

SHOPPING

nothing than that and the presence of a mother makes it perfect =)

After almost 3 weeks of almost sleepless nights, I finally consumed the best best best remedy in the world.

An Exemption ;)

2009-11-19T23:03:00.002+08:00

I knew that this moment would finally come. As usual, I'm getting bored already. And I'm missing everyone already. Anyway, let's cherish this instant because next year would be a very hectic one.

xoxo

busy?

2009-10-15T17:31:00.002+08:00

Confused whether I'm busy or not. I wish I'm not,but it seems like the current situation makes me busy though I don't really act like I am...hehehe..Abundance of things approaching around the corner. PP's annual dinner, debate, EXAM, omg. I might lose my saneness. How I wish I could stop myself from pressuring myself to be in 5 sina next year. I mean, of course there were zahrawians who succeed, weren't there? I think what's my biggest fear is that I'm afraid I might be separated from my girlfriends. Of course they are going to place themselves in sina and I'm pretty sure of that. So, there's nothing much to be said. I'm so so so left out. O GOD help me.

Pleasee

2009-11-13T17:26:00.000+08:00

I am urging time to move faster so that exam is over.

Once you make a decision, the universe conspires to make it happen- Ralph Waldo Emerson

2009-11-08T00:52:00.001+08:00

Besides the fact that this is the first time I watch a football game, I'm sad and pissed off. If I can watch something that I never did before with full support as a Kelantanese in front of the tv though I actually don't like football, why can't the Kelantan supporters who were IN THE STADIUM can't support the players when FULL UNDIVIDED SUPPORT was what those Kelantan players were craving for when they were fighting for their last chance. Okay it is still acceptable if many of us said they didn't play well, but still, that wasn't how those Kelantanese should behave. Burning banners, burning this, burning that. What exactly did they get from burning things is a question mark.

The moment that touches my heart was when Indraputra gave us a first and last goal in that match. Why couldn't the supporters of Kelantan stay there and support the team no matter what. Why didn't they shout out something together so that the team wouldn't feel bad and keep on being strong. Why can't they do that simple things? Their actions just made the players down. That's why I think the above quotation suites this situation perfectly. When the supporters made the decision to leave and burn things up, they meant LOSING and *taraa* we lost. It's the law of attraction that took place. Whatever it is, I salute the captain of the team. Though they went trough an unbearable pressure I guess, he managed to give us a gift. A goal. Thanks.

Everytime I think of this, I would remember what the teachers had done to us when we lost the debate competition. =( We were in the same situation. We lost the match, and also lost the support and appreciation from teachers and some maherians. How sad. Only we knew what was the feeling like.

To the Kelantan team, be strong. If there are Kelantanese who aren't proud of you guys, ignore those unthankful ppl. I am proud of you. Kito gomo next time. =) and to others, we need and we HAVE TO appreciate and be proud of them. They did a lot to get to where they are tonight. We know nothing about their hardwork.

xoxo

Love Story

2009-11-07T00:39:00.000+08:00

I had three friends. Eric, Cathlyn, Carol. Eric was chased by all the girls in our high school. Cathlyn was one of those popular girls. A cheerleader, sexy, and stylish. Carol was just one of those plain and average girls .Cathlyn and Carol were both totally crazy and wacko over Eric. Cathlyn didn't have to do anything to attract Eric. For she was already attractive enough. Carol on the other hand, showered Eric which love and care. Carol wasn't ugly at all. In fact, she looked sweet and pleasant. But she wasn't a cheerleader, she didn't wear spaghetti-straps or tubes. So like everyone expected, Eric chose Cathlyn. For Carol was just one ordinary and plain girl. While Cathlyn was labeled as the cool and attractive type.

Eric always insulted Carol, telling her what a 'Plain Jane' she was and how dumb she looked which obviously made Carol feel so hurt and useless. That's life. Carol never gave up though. She wanted to prove something to Eric. She wanted to prove that looks aren't everything. She studied hard, really hard. She became the top girl, and all the guys who once ignored her, chased her. But she never forgot Eric. Everyday, she put a red rose in Eric's locker. Always with the same words. 'I care for you, and I always will' because she knew that Eric was facing a hard time.

Eric began to realise how dumb he had been. His beloved girlfriend, Cathlyn was flirting with other guys. He regretted for choosing the wrong girl. Cathlyn broke up with Eric later for she had found a wealthier guy. Eric felt so cheated, stupid and dumb. He went to look for Carol. He knelt on his knees, and said. "Carol, please forgive me. Do you want to be my girlfriend?" Carol rejected him, much to everyone's surprise. She only uttered these words. "You've suffered a great loss, so I don't want you to face another one".

Eric felt disappointed. He didn't understand a word that she said to him but they became good friends and did everything together. Eric began to change into someone better because Carol showered him with the love he never experienced before. His ex-girlfriends had never treated him that way. They just accepted him for his looks, but Carol accepted him for himself . She changed him. Carol continued putting a red rose into his locker everyday. With the same words. She never forgot.

One day, Carol didn't turn up in school. She didn't come for a week. At first, Eric thought that she was on a vacation with her family because she told him that she would be going Hawaii with them. But one day. He received a call from the General Hospital saying that Carol was about to die. She had been suffering from cancer but Carol forbade them from telling him because she didn't want Eric to worry about her but now that she was about to die. She wanted to see Eric for the last time. Eric rushed to the hospital. When he saw how weak Carol was, tears began rushing down his cheeks. He whispered, "Why didn't you tell me earlier? Why did you hide this from me?". She looked at him . And smiled weakly at him.

"When I said that I didn't want you to suffer from facing another loss, I meant this. I didn't want to tell you because I didn't want you to worry. I wanted to spend my last days with you cheerfully." Eric looked at her.

"You can't leave me!" he said. "What will I be without you?"

"You'll be who you are now. I will always be there by your side. Never forget that. Cherish those times. Live life happily. And one more thing."

"Yes?" "I love you" And she died. Eric screamed. He still couldn't accept Carol's death. He had only spent a month with Carol. A month, but Carol changed his life in a way. A way that no one could ever explain. He regretted but he knew that Carol would always be keeping an eye on him from Heaven. Sometimes we just don't appreciate those people who really care for us until they leave us. Until we lose them. Then we regret. Outer beauty doesn't matter; it's the inner one that counts. It's better to tell someone how much you love them rather than to not tell them and lose them without telling them. Love is when we fight till the very last minute, just to show and tell someone how much we love them.

xoxo

E to the X to the AM

2009-11-04T18:27:00.003+08:00

Quick post this is. Hhaha Tomorrow I'm having History papers and I haven't read anything YET. Laud me please. Haha. I have less than six hours to revise 10 chapters and its crazy and I'm not going to finish them of course but I don't care. Haha Live a life happy yawh. Though I'm so stucked in this awful situation, but I know it will finally end even if I can't answer all the papers for this exam. I keep on telling myself, CHILL ELLI. YOU WILL BE JUST FINE. Ciao ppl! I'll ~~probably~~ be back when the exam's over.

xoxo

what a day =_=

2009-10-21T22:16:00.007+08:00

Debate debate debate god knows how much I love debate,but when it comes to occurrence like what happened this morning, I feel like choking their neck, literally okay! It's not that we can't face the fact that there are ups and downs in this lovely debate world but I just can't accept it when it is unfairly done. We once faced the fact that we lost to wataniah, but today, no. In case that '~~special~~' person reads this, I just want to say that we know it was you. Why did you play dirty? People still can see with their bare eyes that your 'anak2' don't deserve it. TOLONG LA. I'm not angry at our opponent just now, because they are just the puppet of yours too, to assist you to play dirty. =_=. suka hati awakla. TUHAN tahu apa awak buat. Dirty tricks won't bring you anywhere because at last, you'll have to face the fact that your 'anak2' can't take that kind of shortcut. We fought tooth and nail to get to where we are today, and your 'anak2' will have to do the same, or even more. Okay?

Back to my world okayh ppl. In the recent post, I mentioned the lumps on my skin. Later on I realised it was hong mok, well that's the chinese name of it that my mom uses, and its scientific name is urticaria. Goddamn itchy. After being jabbed, I got 2 days of MC but I wasted it of course for the debate but the vampire screwed everything up =_='.

Vampire dan 'anak2': Kita jumpa tahun hadapan ya. PDS ada, ASAT ada, mcm2 ada. We're not stupid no more. Save your tricks to other ~~dumb~~ debaters. We've learnt our lesson, and you are no more trusted okay.