I'll take it as something not meant to be.

Lately, I've been reminiscing so much. 

I can clearly remember the words from them saying that I can make a good TESLian.

I can clearly remember the moment I bought the complete work of William Shakespeare. I remember how I struggled to understand each word and said to myself "It's okay, when the time comes, you'll learn them in university,".

I can clearly remember the moments I helped my friends in English and said to myself that I would be doing the exact same thing in the future with my students. 
I can clearly remember how I looked at my English teachers in awe and said to myself "aw baby! that would be you in just several years to come!".

I can clearly remember the moments I proudly stated my plans for the future.

I can clearly remember how happy I was when my SPM result was the best someone could get, to do what I want to do.

I can clearly remember how high my hopes were when I applied for the course.

I can clearly remember how devastated I was when my application was denied.

I can clearly remember how hard I cried and rebelled.

I can clearly remember how the people around me and I coaxed myself.

I can clearly remember how I came to a point where I had to accept things and acted like everything was cool.

Years from now, I hope I would be able to remember how I'm trying my best now to accept what God has given me and still strive for what I love.

It might take time but I'll try. God knows what's best for us and I believe in blessings in disguise. I know that I have a choice on whether to smile and accept or to rebel to the end.

"If Allah brings you to it, He will bring you through it".

 

 

xoxo